Good morning from day number 6!
Yesterday morning, I was making breakfast and Tatum, our 2 ½ year old, walks in and says to me, “It’s not Christmas, Why are you still here?” I said, good morning to you too sweetheart. Normally, I am gone by the time that she wakes up and so she was very confused. She hasn’t quite grasped the concept of sabbatical and to be honest, I am right there with her. The past 5 days have been spent trying to give my mind to God to let him have control. I would like to say that has been easy, but it hasn’t. We serve a patient God that knows how to work on hardheadedness! I have experienced more freedom and clarity each day of my sabbatical and know that it will continue.
I have been contemplating the question Tatum asked me yesterday of “Why are you still here?” and it has been a very convicting one. I feel as if I subconsciously ask God this question quite often. I tried to find clarity of what He was trying to teach me and He lead me to Psalm 121:8 which says, “The Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.” I truly believe he is trying to teach me utter dependence on him in every decision I make. As I type this, it sounds ridiculous that I wouldn’t put Him in every decision that I make, but I believe I get caught up in the fast pace of life and don’t include Him. I believe God is working in me to take everything back to the basics and keep it simple, which is also ironic because I tell people to keep it simple all the time!
As I stated earlier, I am settling in to my sabbatical and clarity is coming as I begin to focus on my walk, my family, and serving others. What an awesome company that we work for and what freedom this sabbatical experience is bringing!
-Addison