Accepting

June 12, 2017 was my first official day of Sabbatical and that weekend I struggled with how to prepare not sleeping much and feeling overwhelmed by emotions.  No one can explain what you feel when your starting a Sabbatical its like you are excited, nervous, anxious, and afraid all emotions are mixed into one and after hours of meditating and thinking I realized  I have to just give up control and TRUST in the Lord. That’s just what I have done.   I trusted and he answered by rekindling a relationship with my great niece.  I was blessed to be able to take her out and visit with her.  I have cared for her since she was 4 months old.  She has been in our lives for almost 4 years.  She recently has gone back to live with her mother. When I pulled up in the drive she recognized my vehicle and left my mom behind running as fast as she could with her big smile.  We took her for an ice cream and spent time talking to her. We told her we missed her to make sure she did not think that we did not want her in our lives anymore.   We returned her to my mother’s house.  As I left her at my mothers and we walked to the door she began to cry.  I gave her a big hug and told her we needed her to be a big girl and stay so we could visit again.  As I walked turned away I began to cry but I have to TRUST in the Lord and know that he is going to take care of her when we are apart.  It was so hard for me to leave her but  I have prayed every day for her and this is where I have to trust in the Lord. I have helped her the best I can, teaching her right from wrong and  how to care for herself.  I know now that she and I have a special bond and I am ever so thankful for her being in my life.  I hope to see her again soon. Proverbs: 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart,