Visit with Mom

Got back late yesterday from Wichita, KS where my mom lives.  She is on her third bout of cancer and last November she had to have emergency surgery for a ruptured colon that has taken her a long time to recover from.  The last time I saw her was Mothers’ Day weekend and that visit was a little troubling as it seemed like she had lost her desire to fight so I was anxious about this trip.  Mom has always been very independent.  She is very quiet and to herself and has a hard time letting people in especially when it comes to personal issues like her health.  We talk at least twice a week and I usually visit at least two or three times a year.  The most frustrating thing is I always feel like there is nothing I can do to help.

This trip was just what I needed and I believe it was what Mom needed too. She really opened up to me and we had some deep conversations like “why do bad things happen to good people”- that’s a tough one.   She had made so much progress since the last time I saw her and I am thankful that she has her fight back again!  I am grateful for my stepdad  – he has always been like a father to me and he takes really good care of my mother.

We all take so much for granted – most of all our health.  I realized how blessed I am at my age to still do the things that I can do physically.  I also realized how blessed I am to still have my mother in my life.  She is the strongest woman I know and I love her very much!