Author: Mark Owen

Kayaks and Gratitude

Week 4 (Feb 20-22) Kayaks and Gratitude – The last few days have been full of household and lawn & garden projects as well as a little bit of cycling to keep the heart pumping. Wednesday was the most gorgeous day ever and it seemed to require pulling out the kayak.

What is it about water and a kayak that stirs something spiritual inside me? Maybe the quiet solitude when you’re floating and rocking on the water with no engine noise to offer distraction. Maybe it’s the beauty of the water and surrounding landscape from a perspective that is different from the norm. Maybe the combination of all these things was a whisper from my Lord “Let’s go spend some time together”. I think it’s the latter.

While on the water for over two hours, I started thinking about blessings and gratitude. While our blessings are abundant, I’m not sure that I give adequate time to gratitude for His blessings. So, let me give you a partial list of what I gave thanks for while on the water.

  • My salvation; I’m thankful He made new that which was old.
  • Lori – She is a Proverbs 31: 10-31 kinda gal (Look it up)
  • Our extended family – in-laws and outlaws
  • Good friends
  • Our Timothy Department and Pioneer Drive Baptist Church fellowship
  • My Appalachian heritage – moonshiners and ridge runners, thankful for the lives of my parents, grandparents, uncles and aunts
  • Blessed to live in the USA, Texas, and Abilene! It doesn’t get much better.
  • Our health
  • Our home
  • The love of being outdoors
  • Music
  • Work that I enjoy
  • The time set aside for reflection during this Sabbatical

Although this is a partial list of the things I am grateful for I have to add one more. I’m thankful for the whisper “Let’s go spend some time together”.

Deliveries and Discoveries

Week 3 (Feb 9-17) – Deliveries and Discoveries – This week has been focused on the service project which is working with Meals on Wheels (MoW). I am more than impressed with this local organization. Their facilities are top notch, but what is most impressive is the organization of the staff and volunteers. This is a well-oiled feeding machine that serves north of 1000 meals per day!

The clientele of MoW is very diverse and the needs are diverse as well. Some of the clients are receiving the meals due to poverty, but most are elderly or have health issues and need a helping hand.  Some have temporary needs that may be the result of recovering from a surgery or injury. We have to watch for signs of need, abuse and general well-being along the way and report anyone that does not answer the door and phone. MoW then follows up with those to make sure everything is all right. If you are a regular driver you will establish your own route so that relationships can blossom. Due to the short period of time that I was scheduled to work, I am listed as a substitute driver and I had a different route every day.

Something that hit me was the fact that there are needs for meals that cross every socio-economic spectrum. The needs are real. I walked up to doors in very impoverished neighborhoods on one day and delivered around my own neighborhood the next. A few places that I delivered to made me thankful that I have a concealed handgun license, but 95% of the time I felt very secure.

I made some discoveries along the way beyond the diversity of needs.

  • Some people are very lonely and need the contact as much as the meal.
  • It takes very little effort to make someone smile who needs a little sunshine in their day.
  • Some people want you to deliver their meal and move on.
  • Most people are appreciative and thankful for the meal and contact.
  • A few are ungrateful, unappreciative, and feel entitled. Thankfully this was a small percentage of the contacts that were made.
  • Every one of us needs a little help every now and then.

I must be honest, I struggled with being judgmental in some cases. I found it very difficult not to judge when the door opens and smoke starts to pour out from the 4 packs of cigarettes that were smoked in the previous 10 minutes. I can’t understand people continuing to smoke when the issue they are dealing with is rooted in this habit. I also struggled with those few that have ungrateful or entitled attitudes. I also know that this is a shortcoming in my personality that God wants me to deal with, yet I struggle.

My favorite delivery was my last delivery on my first day. “Frank” was 96 years old and sharp as a tack. He lost his wife 2 years ago, and probably needed the contact as much as the meal. He was a pilot in WWII and a retired engineer for Chevron/Texaco. He was very proud to be a UT Longhorn and very proud of the body of work during his career. Frank built the first pipeline over the Andes mountain range and other impressive projects as well. He was very proud of his house that he served as the General Contractor for the project and the craftsmanship was evident. Frank wasn’t afraid to share his faith and quoted scripture freely.

As I chatted with Frank, God gave me an impression that as we age, He prepares us for home. Our bodies wear and Heaven becomes more populated with our friends and family than what we have here on Earth. Although Frank was a positive, happy person, it was evident that he would be even happier when his time comes, in our permanent home.

The week left me grateful and hopeful, but it also left me heavy-hearted experiencing the needs and struggles that others have. We are grateful for health and the many other blessings that God has graciously allowed on our lives.

 

Beginning of Week 2

Week 2 – (Feb 6, 7, 8)

On Monday, the reality of the Sabbatical began to hit home. After being in Colorado the first week it seemed like a short vacation, but now I am in my usual surroundings during the work week without the work. I am at peace knowing that our Southern Region managers are capable and willing to take care of things. I guess having the first Sabbatical in 2010 taught me that God will make all things work out.

As far as my devotions, I have continued with the 2 daily devotions that I started on January 1. One is titled “Men of the Bible – Insights from the Warriors, Wimps, and Wise Guys”.  This gives a brief insight from the lives of ordinary men, that gives a lesson that can be applied to our lives. It shows the good, bad, and ugly. Monday focused on Jonah and Luke 11:29-30.

Luke 11:29-30New International Version (NIV)

The Sign of Jonah

29 As the crowds increased, Jesus said, “This is a wicked generation. It asks for a sign, but none will be given it except the sign of Jonah. 30 For as Jonah was a sign to the Ninevites, so also will the Son of Man be to this generation.

In contrast to Jonah’s disobedience, Jesus obediently offered to sacrifice himself to save many. Jonah also saved many through following through with God’s plan that he ran from. It is a comfort to know that even in our disobedience, we can still rest in Christ’s obedience.

The other is titled “The Shadow of the Cross” and is focused on the Gospel of Mark (my favorite :)). On Wednesday, the focus was on Mark 2:23-24.

Mark 2:23-24New International Version (NIV)

Jesus Is Lord of the Sabbath

23 One Sabbath Jesus was going through the grainfields, and as his disciples walked along, they began to pick some heads of grain. 24 The Pharisees said to him, “Look, why are they doing what is unlawful on the Sabbath?”

Although this devotion deals with legalism, I found my thoughts going in a different direction. I will start working with Meals on Wheels on Friday.  These verses reminded me that the field owners left grain on the ground for the widows and others who could not provide for themselves. I can only hope that the experience with Meals on Wheels is a positive time and I will find satisfaction helping some of our elderly that need just a little bit of help to maintain their independence. Maintaining your independence when aging or invalid is so important to the dignity of one’s existence.

On Wednesday I added a 3rd book to the daily devotional plan. “The Book of Mysteries”. This is not done in a typical devotional style and if the 1st day is any indicator, I am going to love this. It is done in story fashion but leaves you with something to work on during the day to bring you in closer relationship with God. Today started with a question ”Can that which is finite encompass that which is infinite?”. The answer is only if the finite is an open vessel. Only by opening yourself up can you come to know what you don’t know already.

Today’s mission: Open my mind, my heart, and my life to what I  do not know so that I can contain that which is greater than myself.

Week 1 – Rest and Reward

Week 1 – My Sabbatical began with the reward and exercise portion, and we traveled Sunday January 29th via American Airlines to Durango, Colorado. Lori took her weeks’ vacation and spent the first week of my Sabbatical with me and my next to the oldest brother Marvin, skiing at Purgatory Mountain.

We started by having a great meal at Pappadeaux’s at the DFW airport, one of our favorite restaurants. We arrived at 4:00 and Marvin picked us up at the airport and we settled in to our home for the week. This place is special to me for several reasons. 1) God’s creativity is so evident in the mountains and it is very spiritual 2) I love to ski 3) we spent very special time with Mom here.

The 2010 Sabbatical plans had to be changed, as I planned to spend the 1st week hanging out with Mom and Dad in Lubbock. One month before the Sabbatical, Dad died unexpectedly. Lori and I had planned to spend a week in Durango alone together but decided to invite Mom and Marvin. We had a great time but it was evident Mom was missing her man. We returned the same time the following year and invited Mom and Marvin again and spent some great quality time together and Mom died unexpectedly 5 weeks later. This place is special.

Pleasant memories this week  of a train ride we took in 2010 between Durango and Silverton that brought back so many memories of my Mom’s childhood that she shared with us. As I sat at Purgy’s at the base of the mountain on Tuesday, a memory flooded over me as I looked at the spot of one of my favorite pictures of Mom that highlighted her humor and spirit. She grabbed a snowboard from the rack and had us take a picture of her after “her day of shredding the mountain”!

We had dinner Tuesday with Lori’s cousin David and his wife Kathy at Kennebec, a very nice restaurant just outside Durango. Kathy joined us skiing on Wednesday.

Lori only skied one day and I was concerned she might not be enjoying the trip as much as Marvin and me, but she made it clear that she was enjoying not having any responsibility. To quote Kid Rock – “she was chillin’ the most”! I skied 5 out of 5 days from the time the lift opened until they kicked my off the mountain and my legs and lungs should be in good shape!

Honestly, taking the reward portion first is a bit awkward because it really hasn’t sunk in that I’m on Sabbatical. Let’s see what happens today as I would normally be at work. I’m grateful for the time we had in Colorado and I’m looking forward to what God has planned for me over the next few weeks.

To Hear God Laugh, Tell Him Your Plans!

Lori and I were recently able to take Helpers of People leave to participate in a mission trip to bring the good news of Jesus Christ to the Navajo in Chinle, Arizona. Our friend, Jimmy Pogue has led his Student Council members from Cooper High School to Chinle for 13 years each winter to bring food, clothes, and livestock feed. He has wanted to return to Chinle to share Christ’s love without carrying the shackles that come along with the public school system.

Jimmy carefully and prayerfully selected his team based on specific strengths and skills of each missionary and we carried 37 on the trip. We carried a revival pastoral team, a music team, a baseball camp team, a Disciple Now team (ministry aimed at teens), a women’s bible study team, a food team including Lori, and an evangelism team to hit the streets that included me.

Over the last year we made our plans, and then we made more plans, every “i” dotted and every “t” crossed down to the bus charter and where we would eat every meal along the way.
Then it began. A few weeks before we were leaving, the bus company sent our deposit back and informed us they were taking a charter that paid more. So we had to scramble to find vans to rent which saved us money that we were able to spend feeding people. Our plans were not His plans, so the plan was less than perfect. God speaks… You will need vans to transport my children.

One of my other responsibilities included supplying a truck to pull a trailer with equipment, food, and luggage. The morning we were leaving I was up early to go fill up the truck. As I was walking to the truck my phone rang and the ID said “Jimmy Pogue”. My response, “What does he need now?” When I answered, he informed me that one of our Sunday School members died in her sleep over night. Michele Scott was a vibrant 46 year old wife and mother of 3. Now I felt conflicted to whether we should stay to support this dear family or go at 8:30 as planned. Later, (I will come back to this) I would recognize the following verse as God speaking again in this situation: Romans 8:28 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.

We drove to Albuquerque the 1st night and we met again as a group to pray, share, and to go over our plans. We arrived in Chinle around 2:30 and unloaded to find that no advance work had been done by the new pastor. The college kids were expecting 6-8 teens for Disciple Now, the coaches expected 10-12 for baseball camp, the ladies expected 8-10 for the women’s bible study that were all running between 5:00 and 7:00 pm. The food crew expected to feed the same number. At 4:20 pm, I and 3 others pulled out of the church parking lot to go find people to attend because no one had been informed of the activities. I didn’t understand how this could be; our plans were so complete and well thought out. God speaks… Go find my children, they’re waiting.

As we arrived in the neighborhoods (tribal housing projects), the first door I went to politely said no thanks. At the next house were 3 small boys playing and I told them about baseball camp, Disciple Now and they jumped in the van. I had to drag them out and explain that we needed their parent’s permission before they could go and I was invited into their home. Now, the 3 boys were on board hanging out the windows inviting all the kids to Vacation Bible School. Keep in mind, our plan did not include Vacation Bible School! We saw more kids and got parental permission; over and over we filled the vans and turned around for another van load. We must have brought 100 kids to the church and 50 or 60 to the baseball camp and it was chaotic! At 6:50 as I was about to go back to find more kids, they asked me to stop because we were not prepared for young kids and we certainly were not prepared for the number of kids.

My perspective from the van was much different from the perspective at the church and baseball field. They were saying “Oh my gosh, look at all these kids” because they were being overwhelmed with something that we did not plan for. My perspective from the van was “Woohoo! Look at all these kids!!!!!!” God spoke again… My plan is better. You will reach My people through these kids. I AM greater than your plan.

That night, most of our team had a pity party because things didn’t go as planned. I woke up several times during the night worried the kids would not come back because we were disorganized and unprepared for what we encountered. God spoke again… I wiped out your plan because I AM sufficient.

Overnight we had Vacation Bible School plans emailed and printed and again God revealed to us His better plan. I found that my fears were also not part of God’s better plan as we went to the neighborhoods and the vans filled up once again at a more manageable level. Others in the group thought that the evangelism (van) duty was the worst job that anyone had. They were wrong! We had a vantage point no one else had. We were invited into their homes; we met moms, dads, grandparents, brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, and cousins. We were able to better see how life is lived on “the rez”.

We also were able to witness the impact that each of the ministry teams were having on these children and their families as we had windshield time and home time to fill with conversation. I witnessed 2 boys jump on the van with their new Bibles that coach Steve Coleman gave them frantically looking up John 3:16. The coach showed them his Hardin-Simmons University cap that represented a team that was very important to him. He then turned it over and showed the most important thing that has ever been known to man… under the cap’s bill the coach had written John3:16. I witnessed the kids singing songs on the van that the music team had taught them. I witnessed the kids saying that they did not have to fear as they trusted God for protection that the VBS team had taught. I saw teens rebel against peer pressure and declared to stand up for Christ in the Jr High and High Schools. I saw women bring friends, teens and children bringing their moms to the women’s bible study, which ended up near 20 in attendance. I saw more people come to the revival each evening than the night before. God speaks… Enjoy the blessing of My plan and be grateful that I AM graciously allowing you to come along for the ride.

Then there is Leroy. Leroy is an Indian man in his early to mid forties that Jimmy Pogue befriended 8 years ago during one of his student council trips. Leroy is a generous, big hearted man that was there with us the entire time helping with anything we asked of him and more. I had heard Jimmy talk about his friend Leroy for years and we had been praying for years for his salvation. Jimmy, our Associate Pastor Jeff Reid, and Gary Milliorn, all found opportunities to have deep spiritual discussions with Leroy without seeing any result. Sunday morning in the worship service Jimmy and Leroy sat in the front row. During the invitation, Jimmy told Leroy that he was never closer to salvation than he was at this moment. Leroy did not step out.

Our time in Chinle was through and we headed back to Abilene to attend the funeral of our dear friend Michele Scott. As Jimmy walked in to the service he received a text from Leroy that stated “my life is coming apart, my nephew was murdered last night”. Jimmy called him to let him know he would call him back after the funeral service. We all celebrated the life of Michele, we said our goodbyes until we reunite in the presence of God.

After the service, Jimmy and Jeff Reid called Leroy. Understandably, Leroy was distraught over the loss of his nephew. Jeff described the celebration we experienced at Michele’s funeral and explained the sorrow and grief shared by all. Then Jeff shared that while we were grieving the loss of our friend, we were celebrating Michele being home with the Father. Jeff asked “Leroy, if you die today would your funeral be a celebration?” Leroy began to weep uncontrollably and asked “What do I need to do to have that?” He was led through the process of salvation and Leroy asked Christ in to his heart as his Lord and Saviour!! He stated that he felt as if a boulder had been lifted off of him. Later Leroy confided that he had experienced joy for the first time in his life.

Now back to the verse mentioned above – Romans 8:28 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose. God took two tragic circumstances and used them for good. While we would have celebrated seeing Leroy accept Christ while we were in Chinle, God chose for us to be 700 miles apart. God spoke again… This is between Me and Leroy.

Our mission trip to Chinle did not go as we planned. God wiped our plan off the table to demonstrate His power and His glory to a band of people with good intentions. We truly witnessed the hand of God at work and we were blown away by the results. The Discilple Now had the number expected, the women’s ministry and baseball camp exploded beyond our expectation. The revival, music, and food ministry was off the charts and God gave us a Vacation Bible School that we had not planned for that was unbelievable! God’s plan is better, He gave us vans that we would need, He gave us peace through our grief to be used in His plan, He provided children to us as He loves the little children, He confused our plan to show that He is God, He blessed us in multiples when we were willing to follow His plan, and God loves Leroy… and Leroy loves Him back.!